Golden (By Harry Styles)

As I mentioned in my video breakdown of “Golden” this song is deceptively upbeat. I believe that’s because (like Harry admitted in the Beats 1 Interview) he was determined to make this album process (writing/touring/promoting) more fun that the last time. We can see that come to fruition even in the choices he made for the music video, making it a jovial excursion despite the subject matter being discussed. (Despite him crooning that he doesn’t want to be alone when he dies. 🤔😥😔)

The melody and the video are entirely contradictory to the lyrics delivered. These are lyrics from a needy, tortured, lovesick soul. In this song he is brandishing the sort of honesty that would make the receiver deeply uncomfortable, because it confronts them with the guilt of having left him in this condition.


WARNING: Rant ahead. You can skip if you like, I’ve already covered about all I wanted to say about “Golden.”

Finally let’s discuss the notion that Zayn is scared. In “Golden” Harry outlines that his lover is scared of two things. 1) Scared that hearts get broken. 2) Scared that Harry is so open.

Regarding the first fear, there is nothing unique to discuss here. Every person who has ever been in love is afraid of getting their heart broken. But after so many years of claiming to love a person, you either have to shit or get off the pot. Harry is clearly ready to shit, but Zayn is not. So get off the pot, Zayn, and let someone else who is ready to shit take a seat (what a horrible metaphor.) But of course you don’t want to let anyone else sit down. Not really. It kills you to think another man might.

If Zayn truly loves Harry he needs to stop fearing his heart will be broken. Grow a pair. He also needs to give up fears that Harry will be disloyal, since nothing shows loyalty like Harry’s steadfast love despite their uber unconventional arrangement where they have both been with other people during the course of their entire relationship. It’s time to trust and take a leap of faith off the Tightrope.

“Guess there’s something about the neon red glow, got me thinkin’ bout givin’ on in…”

The vacillation about giving his love to Harry (which he deliberates in “You Wish You Knew”) needs to end. Just do it already and give him a real chance, or leave the man alone entirely. Stop the back and forth. Stop stringing him along and making him “wait” in hopes you might budge and give him the opportunity one day, only to continue with the same annoying, childish ambivalence year after year.

If you are that paranoid to trust this man who has been riding for you heavy, nonstop, and dedicating all of his music to you since he was a young boy, then you don’t deserve his love and need to stop making him think there is any hope things will change. Stop making him “wait” and “keep restrained” watching you get engaged and have babies with other people.

As far as the second fear, this is where I find I have a miniscule amount of sympathy for Zayn, because despite it being 2021, in some parts of the world, and in some cultures same-sex relationships are still frowned upon, or stigmatized. For a man to admit he has feelings for a woman can be a difficult thing. Men don’t like to express the things they feel, especially the icky vulnerable things attached to love. Men are factually less open about their innermost feelings in general. Therefore, imagine how much more heighted that reluctance and disinclination to share their feelings would be if it is concerning feelings they are harboring for another man?? By God it’s unthinkable! So I do have sympathy for him in that regard, and I can understand him wanting to keep their relationship private.

However, I draw the line in the sand and totally retract my sympathy when you still string that man along because he satisfies you physically (and maybe even emotionally) and continue to give him false hope that one day you two will work out, and in the meantime subject him to having to sing about his torment in his music because he’s not allowed to talk to anyone about it. And he is forced (probably even encouraged) to have a bunch of shallow fleeting relationships with females to keep up the charade of YOUR sexuality from his end (because God knows he wants to shout that he loves men from the rooftops! Hence the penis necklace!) and then watch you get engaged and have babies with other people.

And clearly this arrangement is damaging Harry, otherwise he wouldn’t still be singing about it in 2019, and will probably continue to sing about it in next album. At this point Zayn’s fears of being with Harry are just bullspit to me and seem more about protecting his powerful hetero Eastern male image for the sake of his ego and his family more than anything else. And that’s fine, whatever. He can do what he wants.

But at the very least Zarries need to stop making excuses for him in an attempt to make his actions seem noble, and stop coming up with bizarre conspiracy theories to pretend he is the victim of some grave evil. Sorry, I don’t even buy the popular conspiracy theory that he is being blackmailed to stay with the Hadids or that the DJ was sent to scare him back into the closet. I just don’t. Because if that’s the case, then what exactly forced him to get engaged to Perrie long before he ever met the Hadids or that DJ? His ego and wanting a hetero male image is the only explanation that holds up over the entire course of their relationship.


Last thing I want to mention here briefly is that we got such an intense confirmation that Zayn is aware Harry’s “Golden” is about him, when he immediately released two emotional covers the next day. You can tell he feels defeated in this video. His delivery seems super frustrated and almost angered? Almost like he’s pretending he’s being restrained from being with Harry or doing right by him by someone other than himself? I promise you, it’s all in your head, buddy. Get real, Zayn.


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Adnil
Adnil
1 year ago

I swear… if hs3 has a song with the words “yellow metal”in it… we will all just die….😂😂🤣🤣

ZNM
ZNM
1 year ago

This is kinda random but theres this singer, Jake scott, and he has a song called “she” and on spotify the picture is a sunflower😂,and last week he released an EP titled “goldenboy”. Maybe ive gone mad but I found it quite funny

Adnil
Adnil
1 year ago

Thank you AD once again for all of your wonderful content! At this point if Z stays with G after the attack I will have Zero respect for him. It will show us all where he plans to stay regardless of what he puts out in his music, and we should not read anything into it other than just words in a song.

Emma
Emma
1 year ago

I’m glad that someone else said this I listen to golden prancing around my house singing away… and I thought omg this song is so sad!! the words are heartbreaking…. I still get upset that 19 year old Harry was prepared to share and wrote a song about just a little piece of someone’s heart was enough!! HE should never settle for 2nd best he is worth way much more!!! he deserves the world. Z does to but he seems lost…. I love them both but I see were you are coming from with Z, AD x

Alicia
Alicia
1 year ago

Wierd. Nobody’s talking about the verbal assault Bella’ s friend did to Zayn. I want to kniw what that was about

Rang
Rang
1 year ago

Continued….I not making excuses for Z. I don’t believe he is alone in this relationship. I don’t believe he is the victim, I think he acts selfishly but I do think he loves H more than anyone and it messes him up that he can’t change it. I don’t think that makes him a bad person I think it makes him a changed person. And I feel H deserves the world. He is loyal to a fault. God, if I was Z I’d never let him go. Sry, I’m sry, for my ramble….I just watched a Z singing Stockholm Syndrome n they make my heart and brain go crazy.

Rang
Rang
1 year ago

Another amazing post. Thank u so much for feeding my Zarry addiction. I’m going to be honest, I get pretty mad with Z sometimes but like H I still find myself devoted to Zarry and seeing them together happily. I see Z at times as a real selfish person, that is scared of himself being himself bc he loves a man. I can see him just being in the moment with H beyond happy but the second it feels to “real” and he starts to acknowledges his wants to be with H, he runs and gets mad about those feelings. BUT HE CAN ONLY RUN FOR SO LONG bc those feelings are what gives him life. I feel sad for both men. Z lives life full of such talent, and has so much to offer but instead hides bc his inner self is weak.Never letting go. It’s sad! And H is the opposite, his inner self is strong, he waits for Z .He doesn’t run from him.And instead deals with the painful reactions of a scared man. Unfair!!! But I can’t give up on them. I believe they can choose other lives and be fine not together but I feel together is where their souls will be at peace.God, I wish it wasn’t so painful for H and Z wld just give up and be open. I’ve never seen two ppl have such magnetic attraction.

Alicia
Alicia
1 year ago

I just saw a video on youtube where Zayn was going to the studio in NY
His hair is not as long as in the fathers day picture posted by Gigi so that is definately not hum or an old picture. Hell, its the midfle of the summer. Why do they have Khai dressed like its cold. We’ve already seen her hair is like Gigi’s so not sure what that’s abiut. Besides, Zayn didn’t even ackno8her on Mother’s Day. She’s pathetic.

k.m.
k.m.
1 year ago

STOP SNBHDFBE NOT THE UGLY STAG TATTOO VOL 6- laughed a lot at that, the entire page honestly was hilarious.

page 3 was veryy sad but you make so many good points and i can’t disagree w you!! someone get these boys to read this and give them a wakeup call

i love ur writing AD, it gives me so much serotonin and you’re just so good at noticing things hsgdf idek how to explain it

also, i love seeing the different viewpoints of everyone in the comments, it’s always good to see different perspectives and also to see everyone be so respectful of each others’ thoughts!

Huda Tanzeer
Huda Tanzeer
1 year ago

I just realised that Harry has used some of the music from brokeback mountain before and the story is so sad because Jake Gyllenhaal dies while waiting for his lover to be open and I feel like Harry felt so connected to him that he hid small parts of it in his art and the fact that it was before the baby and then Zayn went on and had a baby just like in the movie must have affected Harry so bad.😢

MariaV
MariaV
1 year ago

Zayn must have something to do with the inZAYN channel which many have suspected for a while now. Harry vocalized lyrically that he hoped Zayn would be as open as he and Z is leaving me to wonder if these leaks are him being “open”. The cover song video/picture today uses a rainbow filter once again. My theory- Tightrope & River Road laid the ground work for what we are seeing now and I think by fall they are back together if they aren’t already. I think this was discussed when Harry entered into the PR contract with Olivia. Originally the movie release was said to be 4th quarter of 2021 and October falls into that timeframe. I think Zayn is either making a grand gesture, reminding Harry of their commitment or just maybe they go public as individually “single” in fall. Orange, pumpkins equals October Halloween- Z’s lyrics “Breeze outside my window turned to color. Know that I will see the sun again
Leaves have turned into a tint of orange” Both z and H have referred to each other as the sun and have “floated” to it also in RR lyrics. Zayn ended the story of NIL with those 2 songs for a reason. He is willing to leave the old life behind. He’s tired of being apart.

thelibran
thelibran
1 year ago

inZayn YT channel just posted a cover of Joe’s I Wanna Know and several people pointed out how Zayn changed “You” to “He”. Like He kissed my lips… so who is he then? Why would he change “you” to “he”? Haha I guess AD’s analyses have been really right.

Here’s the cover: https://youtu.be/-L5P6hmjI1w

stacey K
stacey K
1 year ago

Okay, I know I haven’t stated much on all that has happened, just because i feel like there’s a storm brewing and we are just getting partial winds. But you can not deny that Z has been talking to H heavily lately through music.IT seems like Z is in heavy rotation lately. From new music, to leaks to even being pap’d. Just today he covered “I want to know” by Donell Jones. The Song is beautiful in itself, but the way Z sings is just does something to me. Not sure if is the acoustics or the rawness, but it had my stomach doing flips this morning and i was all flustered.

The fact that you don’t see any outright response from H makes you think that his plea’s are unnoticed. I want to believe that H is trying to move on, but if Z can just show H that H is ready( Not the “I’m trying” shit) I believe H will give him some consideration. I want to say that H is just concentrating on him. His life, his career, and his music. He needs to put himself first. Once he does that and knows his worth, he will be secure. Nothing can get to him. I believe they both need to try that first before coming together.

Ali
Ali
1 year ago

I feel we all agree with you and are tired of zayn bullshit. He is with baby mom because he wants to and he keeps behaving like an ass with the grammy diss. Hope Harry kiss david on MP premier 🤣 Harold bae you don’t know the power you hold. He can destroy zigi and everything if he wanted but no he’s just that loyal 💔 I’m so petty I would have exposed everything already

QQQ
QQQ
1 year ago

Random…..I can’t wait for the day the world will know that pillow talk was inspired by H😂😂😂😂🤐I can just imagine the shock on people’s faces….. Also how Z wrote also Golden, sHe,DTD,for someone he didn’t talk to much with🥴😂…….and H wrote sweet creature,FTDT,IICF,fine line… basically almost all songs for Ringo😂…….

QQQ
QQQ
1 year ago

H is a very smart guy and I can’t help but fell like alot of people don’t notice this…..In his interview with Zane Lowe……Zane wanted H to discuss the vulnerability and all in the lyrics of golden ..but H tactfully deflects and start talking about how he would listen to the song on his way to the studio e.t.c……but if one is observant you will note he deflects from discussing the lyrics……Golden(s) is the biggest Zarry proof……and no one can deny that H’s golden is a response to Z’s Golden…..&..I just loooove the comment section under Z’s Golden….. everyone pointing out the lyrical connection….ugh…….it just warms my ❤️……….. personally I would actually dare say that fine line was inspired by their rshp……and I love the arrangement of the songs in the album…….how it starts with H singing of his obsession with Z in Golden and adore you……..then sings of how he no longer will be a fool for Z and he won’t go back.(in sunflower vol 6 and lights up) to finally singing about how even though things are complex they will be alright ….. Ugggh ….. ….But now I feel like Z&H have moved on we(Zarries)are they ones holding on ….

No one
No one
1 year ago

The only way for zayn to be with Harry fully is when he stop seeing their love as ‘curse, crime, sin etc’ because it’s not.
You love who you love just like your heart tells you.
And being Muslim or Christian has nothing to do with it, because all religion see a same sex couple as abomination, the most disgusting people to ever walk on this planet.
But if you will get to hell at the end might as well be happy wholeheartedly when you’re still alive.
Be true to yourself just like you told us zayn, there will be always people that will attack you no matter what you are for no reason at all. People get off saying shit about other people, it happens all the time.
Stop making yourself suffer unnecessarily. It really makes me sad when I think about how Harry never really asked much from zayn, but all that he got is to be a secret behind closed door.
It was zayn who never really gives him a chance.
It was zayn who keeps doubting harry loves for him.(and it really pissed me off)
It was zayn who got engaged and now have a baby.

Feva
Feva
1 year ago

„I guess its my star sign or personality type” … can you tell us What is your star sign? 😁😘

Alicia
Alicia
1 year ago

AD I agree that people turn a blinds eye to all the shit Zayn does and try to make him out to be the victim. Don’t get me wrong I will always be a fan of his music but uf he thinks what Bella’s friend did to humiliate him, wait until Karma shows up. Yeah, something big is getting ready to happen. I just hope everyones ready.

Kiki
Kiki
1 year ago

I am so frustrated with larries that I don’t open any comment sections on Hazza’s or 1d videos. It is either blue and green hearts or some larries giving proofs how even Harry’s fart sounds like ‘I’m in luv with lou’.

February one
1 year ago

This is so beautifully written.
I have said numerous times that I don’t always agree with everything you say all the time but as a reader I have mad respect for your writing. Entertainer is a good example. I used to feel that you struggled with the possibility that it could be about Harry when I have always felt that it is about him. Unfortunately I am one of those people that see things as they are whether I like it or not and have an incredibly open mind. That is why I can delve in the other ships if or when I want and not be perturbed. I do so hoping that there is no Zarry as I don’t want my two favorites to hurt so much but what they write make no sense. They make Zarries seem super intelligent. I have even come to the conclusion that even if there is no Zarry and this is all about money and keeping fans et cetera I will not feel bad because H and Z would be the ones wasting their lives giving clues/ lies instead of concentrating on those they really love and appreciate. This brings me to the fact that it must be real or they would be literally living on a stage every morning they wake up. Can’t wait for you to come around to seeing even more from my point of view. Love you AD

Sandi Priest
Sandi Priest
1 year ago

This is GREAT AD! I just love everything you write! I really do not believe any nonsense about Hadids holding something over Zayn. He is free to do as he pleases which is why I think he is a COWARD. What’s he afraid of? If he was with Harry his music career would probably be 1000 times more successful! He’s got nothing to lose in my eyes by being with Harry. His career is in the toilet because he doesn’t promote or tour. So go be with H already! But he doesn’t do it. It is all on him and no one else. I too am tired of seeing Harry sad, depressed, lonely etc. and I do think with the help of his therapist he’s trying to let go of Z, but he is addicted to that relationship just as Z is addicted to it (albeit the physical aspect). H is addicted to what once was. How can he continue to pine away for someone who treats him this way and has for so many years? Not normal. I truly believe that little by little H is moving away from him. I pray for this for that wonderful human being. I pray he finds peace and happiness and one day has his own beautiful family. ❤🙏

Anita
Anita
1 year ago

HAHAHAHAHAHAH the *metaphor* I’m dying 😂😂😂🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻

Queen. Everything you say is gold.

Zarry documentaries is my new religion and this page is my church.

Jamie
Jamie
1 year ago

I’ve always wondered when they reference the light if they’re meaning the light at the end of the tunnel. Like we know it will be hard and at the front all we see is the obstacles but just look farther once we get through those in the end it will be worth it. And then for H’s Golden video he’s in a tunnel.

It’s almost as if H’s album should be titled NIL or Zayn named it in response to FL. Yes Z hints but like you said H is the one that is direct. NIL is listening about Golden, Sunflower Vol 6, Adore You. More people need to read your posts AD and then maybe they’ll listen : )

Taandem34
Taandem34
1 year ago

great post and well written as always. h&z need to let each other go i mean if they cant even find their way to each other how the hell will they ever stay together. dont think z will ever leave current situation no matter how obvious he cares so little about it cause it safe cover and g can do all work to make it look real. i thought we going to see a brand new z after YM but he just back to hiding. leaking a demo or two doesn’t mean squat (and if h&z really throwing each other clues than stop dammit S.T.O.P. we all weary) z find yourself a dick is my religion necklace and proudly come forward know it will be damn hard cause you dug the hole so deep but we ALL support you like we support anyone with courage to speak their truth. honestly think h finally moved on at this point but he may still want nothing more than to walk the MP premiere with z by his side.

angiev
angiev
1 year ago

Great post as usual. You always see things I don’t and make the subject even deeper. Maybe it’s things in my own life but I just feel sadness about the situation for so many reasons. It’s the star crossed lovers deprived of each other and their love movie. Their story could be a movie–a very sad one. We all know why Harry wanted to do My Policeman.

Anna-Lena
Anna-Lena
1 year ago

“lemon over ice” (adore you) apparently is a term to describe a hot asian person… just saying😉😉

Rhonda
Rhonda
1 year ago

AD – this is amazing! It took me forever to read because I was crying or laughing too hard to see. Someone get this to Zayn ASAP!

I feel overwhelmed with emotions right now. I can’t even imagine how painful all of this is for Z & H.

Anonymous
Anonymous
1 year ago

So I agree with almost everything you said but in yellow metal Zayn gave me the impression that Harry might have already left him or they are not on good terms and haven’t been. Even when Harry sang on the IHeart Radio Jingle Ball he performed golden he changed the lyrics to “I hope someday I can be open. And I know that ur scared because I’m so open”. But that was the time he rumored to have started dating Olivia. Even tho Holivia seem very PR to me he could have told left Zayn around the same time. It all seems around the same time. Baby, Olivia, Harry and Zayn start throwing clues they are not in a good place.

Jan
Jan
1 year ago

Some weird things are happening at the moment ! Safaa Zayns sister has posted a collage of photos on Instagram wishing her Dad Yaser a happy Fathers day .The last one is of a very young Harry and Yaser .Why would she do that?

Hollie
Hollie
1 year ago

I love you A.D but I’m staying out o FCC it, simply cause Zayn isnt going to do right by Harry and I’m annoyed with it. I do agree that Golden is so under appreciated it’s one of my favs off Fine Line. But I do love your discussion boards so thanks

Beulah De jager
Beulah De jager
1 year ago

Found this on Twitter

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Angela Stathis
Angela Stathis
1 year ago

Reading this (or any other of your analysis) makes sense to me almost (lol) every single time..

I don’t know and I don’t care what and if Hadids have a hold at Z or whatever and even if I love Z to pieces – as I have mentioned a numerous times- I just hope that Harry will start to live his life as HE really wants… Z will always be the love of his life (and nobody can convince me otherwise), but life goes on…

-As a zarrie though (double lol) I really hope that they end up together at some point, preferably sooner that later…

Last, but not least, I’m very glad that you continue the Neon Red by Z’s perspective considering your pov about Z – regarding Harry and I really loved the first chapters…

Wtj99
Wtj99
1 year ago

I really don’t want to make excuses for Zs behaviour as it is very frustrating . But we still need to accept that H has been pursuing him relentlessly …..there has to be a a reason for this kind of love that I have only read about in books .I think their love/bond is something which cannot be understood by any of us completely .If H is still waiting then I do belive that their connection is otherworldly .And just think how much we zarries hurt seeing their situation . I can’t imagine the amount of pain these both must be going through especially H. Even if z is at fault ….he must be frustrated with himself , must be loathing himself for his unwillingness to be open and silently watching his lover suffering .I just hope and pray that they find thier way back to each other and if not then a reasonable closure .

Denise
Denise
1 year ago

Even I can feel Harry’s heartbreak. I hope zayn is reading this. Especially page 3

Vanessa
Vanessa
1 year ago

Amen sister!!!

Shewantika
Shewantika
1 year ago

Ok. I laughed then I cried. You are right..honey Zayn if you can’t be with him. Just please let him go. I know how difficult it is to accept your sexuality when you are from a brown family. So I really sympathize u on high level. And I understand his needs of showing up as a hetero man. But Zayn you need to let Harry go. You are literally using him. If you loved him ever just let go. He deserves better and deserves someone who would love him as much as he loves you. And lastly Zayn’s golden and Harry ‘s golden hence proved it’s zarry. Whoever tries to tell otherwise is an absolute fool

MariaV
MariaV
1 year ago

The amount of green and gold Gigi has been wearing or posting randomly is annoying. She is either1) trying to claim it for herself, 2) openly trying to piss off zarries or 3)she is acknowledging Z was never really hers to begin with. The sunflower flower pot last week is a whole different story…

Ad's fan
Ad's fan
1 year ago

I think harry should move on I mean there is nothing left for him zayn will always be with a woman I just know he is not going to change and harry should Stop waiting I don’t think wait is worth it…..
I mean just look at him how can you hurt such an innocent soul…..

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ali
ali
1 year ago

I fell asleep listening to sleep story the other night, I woke up during – had an episode of sleep paralysis which is common for me – and just listened to the rest. I heard the bit about the sunflowers and daisies.

I just went to how perfect that story is for Harry and Zayn. I’m glad you mentioned it here, I thought I was the only person who heard it.

Shewantika
Shewantika
1 year ago

Ugly stag tattoo vol6.. 🤣🤣🤣🤣 please someone stop me. My mom literally scolded me for laughing out so loud 😆😆

Kaodi
Kaodi
1 year ago

I liked it.

HS2 Golden is very sad and depressing.

Glad you are seeing that.

Hope ur good day

Mary
Mary
1 year ago

This post is just so good. You really are such a gifted writer and deep thinker. It is just brilliant how you uncover the way Harry expresses himself in his music and makes himself so clear about who he is and who he loves.
Btw ugly stag tattoo vol.6 made me laugh😂😂

Eliya-
Eliya-
1 year ago

Yeah…
You said it all-💔

Neithe alben
Neithe alben
1 year ago

Preach gurl PREACHHHHHH!!!!!!!! Zayn is Golden Zarry is Golden -Period-

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